So...today has not been a good day. I just want to curl up in bed and wish the world away. This is SOOOOOOOOOO hard for me to write...there is still so much of me that wants to always be "up." I struggle with sharing this because its not fun, happy, hopeful. But I don't feel those things today...I just feel alone! And even though I KNOW that what I "feel" isn't what is truth...today it is hard to get past those feelings. I can't even get my booty in gear enough to go for a run.... :(
So...here are my guts...not real pretty today...but honest!!
Today I am longing...my heart hurts...
I long for companionship
I long for laughter
I long for warmth
I long for a strong hug that says it's ok
I long for help
I long for leadership
I long for a sense of home
I long for encouragement
I long to feel wanted
I long to feel needed
I long for security
I long for someone to hold my hand
I long for guidance
I long for a smile
I long for connectedness
I long for openness
I long for sofa talk
I long to be known
I long to give all of those things to someone else
I long for him
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I've been struggling with wanting (& not having) the same things. (more so lately than normally) Thanks for sharing so openly & honestly. I'll be praying for both of us to find contentment in Christ alone!! :)
Oh sweet friend, my heart aches for you. I love how beautifully you put your longings into words, and I have to believe that the Lord WILL give you the desires of your heart. There is a verse in Isaiah that says "He will restore the years the worm has eaten..." Someone told me that when I was waiting for children, and it is so true. When your dreams come true, it will be hard to remember what life was like before. It will be worth the wait.
I love you and am praying for you today!
What precious words, God will truly honor the desires of your heart, Tara, there is a wonderful man longing to meet you, the woman of his dreams! we will be Galveston for the Sports Med Conference this weekend, we are getting together with the Sweets and would love to see you!!!!! Alison has my cell number, call me if you would like to get together!!!
Wanted to let you know I'm thinking about you. Had a dream that you surprised me last night by visiting. The sad part was that in my dream I never made it to the airport to pick you up because I got in a car wreck. I miss you!
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