No Words

Oh...there are no words that I can get out to describe the pain today. When does it get better...when does he STOP hurting me??!!??? I feel so used, so manipulated....and as the truth of the last 6 months continues to be revealed I question how far back does the deception go? How can I continue to feel such deep pain and loss when I am still picking up the pieces daily. Why can't I just get pissed and stay there. I know that sounds terrible..but that's what I want right now...I just want to be pissed. Actually no....I just want it to go away....I just want to forget it EVER happened!!!!!

I know a couple of my girls have very heavy hearts today!!!! I love yall so much and I know that we are all going to survive!!!! There is a song that keeps playing...I hear it daily...I feel like God is singing it to me...to you!!! I so want to believe it!!!

Before the Morning

Do you wonder why you have to,
feel the things that hurt you,
if there's a God who loves you,
where is He now?

Maybe, there are things you can't see
and all those things are happening
to bring a better ending
some day, some how, you'll see, you'll see

Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,
that you still have a reason to sing,
'cause the pain you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming

so hold on, you got to wait for the light
press on, just fight the good fight
because the pain you've been feeling,
it's just the dark before the morning

My friend, you know how this all ends
and you know where you're going,
you just don't know how you get there
so just say a prayer.
and hold on, cause there's good who love God,
life is not a snapshot, it might take a little time,
but you'll see the bigger picture

Would you dare, would you dare, to believe,
that you still have a reason to sing,
'cause the pain you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming

so hold on, you got to wait for the light
press on, just fight the good fight
because the pain you've been feeling,
it's just the dark before the morning

Once you feel the way of glory,
all your pain will fade to memory
once you feel the way of glory,
all your pain will fade to memory
memory, memory, yeah

Would dare you, would you dare, to believe,
that you still have a reason to sing,
'cause the pain you've been feeling,
can't compare to the joy that's coming

com'n, you got to wait for the light
press on, just fight the good fight
because the pain you've been feeling,
it's just the hurt before the healing
the pain you've been feeling,
just the dark before the morning